Scared!

I have my makeup I Am Crossfit Benchmark workout in a few hours. I feel kinda nervous, almost want to just not go. I don't want to feel bad if I don't finish the workout in the 12 minutes. I'm afraid of my cleans, last time I couldn't get it done quick enough. I'm trying to reflect on everything I ate today, trying to make myself drink water. I really want to finish. I lost 4 and half inches and 2% body fat. I can kip. I should be happy no matter what. But I tend to focus more on what I do wrong than what I do right. So I'm scared! But I think all real achievements come from risk. Successful people don't play it safe. I'm going to do my best and then work on accepting my best for what it is and trying not to wallow in regret (like how poor my diet was this weekend because of vacation).

I am also a little concerned because yesterday was a crazy workout. 75 situps, 50 pushups, 25 pull ups, 15 jumping squats (2 Rounds). It wouldn't have been so crazy if I hadn't insisted on doing every push up on my toes even if it meant doing one at a time at the end. Now my arms are a bit sore and I'm going into my benchmark workout. But no excuses! I just need to "get 'er done" and then move on.